'Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny

When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie'

checked out all of avirl lavigne's three album.
i loved it!


cause nothings going right
and everything's a mess
and no one likes to be alone

time check 1.36am
i browsed through photos of guides from 2003/4
haahhaa and
its funny how people really change.
and the change is really alot.

ok today would be good.
:D
goodmorning!

edited.

i dont know if you guys remember this show
zero to hero screend on channel 8 in 2005.



yeah i still vividly remember it its sort of the best drama produced.
its screening again every sunday at llpm-1 am.
its kinda addictive and i'm trying to surf forums to find a way to catch the whole show.

there's a new movie i wana catch also.
Men in White
seems intresting.

its monday today.
gotta go camp christine tmr i hope the dogs dont disturb me.

wassup peep.
i get the kick from just staying online till morning.
its been long since i stayed online till five plus.
i m not feeling sleepy.
its been pretty pointless to go online this few weeks.
its just signing in into msn/chatting with people/listening to music/viewing people's blog/friendster.
and once i'm done with it i start finding things online to keep me occupied.
i dont use photoshop everyday now.
this is a very pointless post because i'm very bored.

time check 4.20pm

i'm sibeh sian now.
bordem gets the better outta me.
went to edit some pictures all in black and white.













time check 4.27pm
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i need something to keep me occupied now.
hahahahah i finished viewing through xanga(s) and i shall put up some quotes?
ahhahaha.

LIFE - four simple letters, yet so complicated
LOVE - four simple letters, yet so confusing
DESTINY - seven simple letters, yet so unpredictable
FEELINGS - eight simple letters, yet so unexplainable
WORDS - five simple letters, yet they aren't enough to express
REGRETS - six simple letters, yet they never seem to disappear
SILENCE - seven simple letters, yet it can be so loud
TIME - four simple letters, yet there is never enough.
SADNESS - seven simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
PAIN - four simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
BEAUTY - six simple letters, yet so hard to see
HOPE - four simple letters, yet so unreachable.
GOD - three simple letters, yet he means everything


life is kinda like an elevator.
we go up, we go down.
they are fun while were in them,
but if we press the wrong buttons,
you could be somewhere where you don't belong

its nice when strangers become friends
but sad when friends become strangers

You see that prep,
messing with her hair,
walking up to her boyfriend,
who is always standing there.

You see that goth,
cutting her wrists,
writing down things,
making a list.

You see that jock,
passing that ball,
looking hott,
standing tall.

You see that dork,
sitting alone,
with no one to talk to
on the phone.

You see that gangster,
hiding the gun,
standing around,
looking for fun.

You see that bad boy,
leaning against a wall,
popping his knuckles,
& looking at a kid too small.

You see that shy girl,
all alone,
not wanting to be here,
just wanting to go home.

You see how everyone
has a label in some way,
but no one has ever really
heard the words they say.

something intresting.



stare at the four dots in the middle of the photo for 30 seconds.
after which you close your eyes and lean your head backwards and blink!
how was it?(:

ok goodmorning.!

finally the term is comming to an end.
time really passes very fast.

ok here's a joke i dont know if you guys heard it before.
how do you aviod being catch in school with long fringe below your eyebrows.
you shave them off!

ok bye.

this shit is damm downright ridiculous.
to you there is only hatred and anger.
dont you think there's something you need to tell me?

_________________________________________________
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?


okay school was fun today.
cause it was talking talking and more talking.
about SHOPPING.
made plans to go out already.













thanks all those who made my day esp odelia and gael!(:

edited.
its 1.34 am now.
HAHAHAHA.
ok i'm dead i'm left with bout 5 hours more of sleep.

edited.



i keep listening to this song.
yes its chinese. the start of it makes my heart soft.
好喜欢你知不知道?

ndp practise at nee soon yesterday.
fun with the company:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THANASHIRYYY!:D



LOVES!(:

happiness has it's own way of taking it's sweet time.

this is for doing so much.

i thought today would be better,turns out i'm wrong.

firstly,thanks guys for your concern.
i'll be fine just give me time.

secondly this is to miss chow ling choo.(i have this feeling you will get to read this even if you dont its okay.)
thanks for your really dumb rule.you're condemming people.
i said your rule is dumb i didnt say you were dumb.
you dont give chances ,what can i expect from you?
i didnt fucking get any booking this year.

why should i care when all you do is just treat me like some transparent glass.
you know i'm not some puppet i have feelings.
you dont have to do this.
i dont even get a shit.
isn this what most of you wanted huh?
now you're seeing this you know how i feel.
and some sec 2 makes me feel like some puppet being ordered here and there.


by this time you've read up till here,i bet you think i'm really desperate for it.
this time you're wrong,i swear i'm not.
that was the last straw,i've lost my tolerence.
thanks so much for breaking my heart.its okay i tried my best(:

masked people hidden motive quoted from beatrice blog.
how true is this.


i tear my heart open i sew myself shut
and my weakness is that i care too much

my life is borrringgg shit.
its the same routine almost everyday.

anywayyyy we got back all out papersss.
as expectedddd i didnt do pretty well.
i didnt feel a thing.

school today was slacked.
we had no lesssons at all.
cd in the hall with shakita all.
we were supoose to make a song.damm funny.
and i was feeling quite angryy throughout the period.
not with any of my classmatessss.
mrs ng kepy asking me why.
she's can be niceee you know.

then the rest of the periods were checking paper and dozing off in class.
ok i shall update later i wana sleep.

i'll play along with your acts.

i will die of exhaustion soon.

got back few of my papers.
i'm not very satisfied.

when we came back from ndp there was this butterfly that was flying around us and pabita went to grab it.
hahahah.
i think it died in the end.

goodnight.!
draggy day tmr.

You've been burned more than once
You don't think much of trust.

i m super dissapointed in chem.
i studied you know!
but i think i got the lowest in classs,best man.
i think she thinks i take no pride in my work
in actual fact i really do.lol
yah like who really cares about filling up their worksheets.

actually i cant be bothered.
HAHAHAHAHA.
i'll treat ct3 as a lesson learn.

school pass slowly today.
but goood.
hahahah.

had chem then pe then chinese.
then down to the dance studio for practice.
then recess.
english=talking to penny with odelia and delia.
damm fucking funny.
maths was feeling very drowsy.
had chem for the last two periods.
ndp after school.

phototaking tommorow!
quick bring your foundation/eye liner/mascara etc.
kiddingzxzxzxz.

yesterday.
headed out to bugis with delia.
sakae sushi.
then walked around then went to j8.
yeah.
vivo on 25.cant wait cant wait cant wait.


i've been sarcastic this few days,i dont like it.

i miss this woman.











i blow smoke,not kisses.



and again.

the below photos make make you puke(:







thats all for today.
between the lines of fears and blame.

hello wello.
short post.
i need to sleep.

We are hummingbirds who are just not willing to move. And there's good news for people who love bad news.

is anybody satisfied with who they really are?

yo yo wassup the sky:D

history was ok had enough time BUT i didnt write the purpose for every question.
k i'm bored thou i know i got things to revise for.

There is no escape.
You have to learn to walk before you can run.

i like short post.

ss and english was ok.
my summary sucks.
now i worry for my history.
cause only 45 minutes?
when i took 43 minutes to finish two seq question for ss.

i did two hours of maths and i only finished two chapters?!
i give up on graphs man.
i've been trying my best to understand but to no avail.
talk bout cordinate geomatry,even worst.
k ttfn i gotta go back to my world of maths.
there's still geog to memorise!

edited.
its 1hour 16 mintues after twelve now and its a sunday.
which means tommorow is ss plus english paper.
and now i'm studying chem notes hopping i can somehow get something out of it.
i feel pumped.
there's too many things to study.
i can't breathe.
ok enough of shit all the best folks for your papers that will be comming.

edited.

One,
first step to the world.

Two,
no worries,wailing eating and sleeping was my job.

Three,
barbie dolls ruled my world.

Four,
mommy can you buy that for me.

Five,
mommy loves mei mei more.

Six,
all i want for christmas was my two front teeth.

Seven,
joined ballet,i wondered why.

Eight,
she took my pencil it never came back.

Nine,
became a monitor,lol

Ten,
bye bye long long hair

Eleven,
bye bye em1.(shocking i know)

Twelve,
psle,219

Thirteen,
wha secondary school already.

Fourteen,
friends dirfted,people changed.

Fiveteen,
15 years of living,still struggling through.

its gona be a long and tiring next week.
bye.

ugly is the world we're living in.

i wish you were here.

i love rainy mornings.
1.the weather is cooling.
2.if you're late you wont get recorded
with the latter being the best thing bout rainy mornings.








to think i cared so much
fuck you.
i did my best
this was what i got.
i guess somethings are better left unsaid.



hello delia
though sometimes you piss me endlessly(opps)
but i'm glad that you're always there really(:
i treasure you quite a bit.
ii lurbb euuzxZ x100



and esther!!!!
forever not complaining bout listening to me grumble and stuffs.
:D
all the best for your mt paper tmr!(:

some people gotta learn staring isn't cool.

life is never fair right?
my head is a box filled with nothing, and that's the way i like it.